I have not done much photography this summer. I’m not sure why that is… I just cannot get over ‘the hump’ and take a camera with me. Whenever I think about bringing a camera, I instantly rationalize the idea away. My DSLR is too big, my Canonet does not have a light meter (and I’m not too great at eyeballing it), and I hate the camera on my iPhone 3GS.
Realistically those are minor issues. I think the real problem is my anxiety towards the (imaginary?) attention that I feel having a camera and taking pictures brings me. I am the most comfortable taking pictures when no one else is around. Only then can I take my time and think about what I am doing. If people are around I feel rushed. I feel like I am inconvenience to everyone else and so I better just get out of the way.
I finally grabbed the camera as we left for a walk and I am glad I did. Don’t get me wrong: most of the shots were out of focus or overexposed but at least I got out there and took some damn pictures.
So, until I get over my own insecurities, I will just try to remind myself to just bring the damn camera!